watching TV

I've been watching all this reality TV shows ... fashion .. etc
I feel so freaking jealous how people how so much money to buy this gorgeous fashion pieces ahhhh so jealous ;__;
it makes me depressed to think about the future, I mean like I only have this loans that I have to pay for once I graduate -___-
I think next semester I will start to look for interships but i'm really scared as I don't have a good resume anyways ahhh idk idk i'm scared of the future!!!!!